Saturday, January 17, 2015

The Psychopathic Misfit

Greetings,

There are many models by which we, especially as occultists, attempt to make sense of all things and to compartmentalize them in order to understand not only psychospiritual but material phenomena.  These are indexing systems if you will, and there are many of them, some more well-known than others - like the Kabbalah as revealed by revered occultists such as Eliphas Levi and others.

While these indexes are valuable for apprehending and analyzing otherwise nearly-inscrutable phenomena, they are themselves meaningless without the necessary context and vocabulary education.  Simpler methods which are perhaps more intuitive become useful in the absence of extended study, and are, if not equally as valuable, at least workable to increase our apprehension of the unknowable mysteries found within the higher realms of consciousness.

One of the main methodologies I personally use, along with the Kabbalah (or Qabbalah, whichever spelling you prefer), is the astrologically derived modes of operation found within nature's workings.  These modes are termed Cardinal, Fixed, and Mutable and refer to the "beginning" of a thing, it's "maintenance and nurturing" phase, and it's "destruction and transformation" phase respectively.


The 12 signs of the Zodiac are categorized within one of these 3 modes.  The Cardinal signs being Capricorn, Cancer, Libra, and Aries.  The Fixed signs being Aquarius, Scorpio, Taurus, and Leo.  The Mutable signs being Gemini, Sagittarius, Pisces, and Virgo.

These 3 phases of nature's operations are also encoded within a single name and magickal formula - IAO.  "I" stands for Isis, who is known as the Great Mother, or that which maintains and nurtures all creatures.  "A" stands for Apophis, or the Great Destroyer, which destroys all things at the end of their cycle so that new life can begin.  "O" stands for Osiris, who is the beginner of all things, or the "planter of seed".  For understanding, one must recognize these names as not just the deities they identify, but as identifying the principles that each of these deities represent.


These primal modes and principles can also be found among more than just the Zodiac and in cultural mythologies, they can also be found in societies as well.  We have Creative (cardinal) people who dream up and invent new things, such as in the arts, industries, and new technologies - Tesla, Jobs, and Edison would be found here.  We have Managerial (fixed) people who are adept at maintaining and nurturing what others have created, while they themselves may have little to no creative ability.  You'll find healers and counselors among this group.  Then we have the Destroyers (mutable), who are people who break down things to their barest elements in order to make something new from the remains.  These people can be found among the military, or working in demolition, or perhaps as athletes, etc.

A common yet unrecognized tragedy occurs when those who are perhaps genetically-determined to fit mainly inside one of these 3 natural modes, doesn't quite realize his place in the natural order, or worse, is made to feel as though his predispositions are in fact useless or even reprehensible.


In essence, I am speaking of the psychopathic misfit.


A working definition of psychopathy is:
a mental disorder in which an individual manifests amoral and antisocial behavior, lack of ability to love or establish meaningful personal relationships, extreme egocentricity, failure to learn from experience, etc.
Generally speaking, psychopathy is considered a mental illness akin to mental insanity.  But upon further analysis, a very telling question is asked: is it that psychopaths are indeed "mentally ill", or is it that there's just no place for them in our society?  Is it that they are somehow at fault for being the way they are, or is it actually society's fault for allowing no "constructive" outlet for their predilections?
We've all known people like this.  The destructive ones, the angry ones, the drama queens (and kings), the murderers, the smooth-talking con artists with no conscience to speak of, those who raise hell for no reason other than they just "felt like it."  These are the people that society seemingly has no use for, and my contention is that society continues to suffer the effects of this because it allows no place for these people other than in jails or cemeteries.  This is a primary failing within society.

No one who recognizes what these people truly are wants to be around them, unless they are of the same nature.  They are maligned and shunned upon discovery of their true nature by those who are unlike them, and made to feel like lone wolves, when in fact their particular talents and their lack of empathy is actually sorely needed within society.  These "psychopaths" are the apex predators of society, the white blood cells if you will, that consume the old, outworn, and obsolete, gleefully and with abandon.  
Imagine the joy the wolf must feel as he feeds upon his prey, and even put yourself in the place of that wolf, which only does what he is designed and created to do.  Only then can one understand that the wolf serves a very pressing need in the wild.  For if there are no wolves, then the prey population gets out of control and nature as a whole suffers because of it.   Imagine the joy of the spider, as he sinks his fangs into his web-bound catch and ingests the juices within it, so that he himself can live another day.  If not for these predators, and others like them, the pest population would explode - and this is what we are now seeing in society.  Predators keep the unwanted population explosion in check, in nature's wisdom and by nature's design.
We see this same suffering caused by our own "pests" within society, as the predators within society, generally having no acceptable outlet for their destructive leanings, simply destroy at random instead and so the actual pests remain alive to propagate.  Predation is what hunters are designed and created to do (so they can't just not do it - there's no turning that leaning off).  Generally these misunderstood people eventually find a way to destroy themselves, and usually after destroying everything or everyone around them, because they are the avatars, or the embodiment of nature's vital principle of destruction.  They dance to that primal pulse of the destructive essence within nature, and hear no other music at all because destruction itself resonates within them.  And so those people and things which actually should have been destroyed long ago because they are obsolete, are thereby allowed to continue to exist and to propagate.  This is the essence of the imbalance.


How can this be fixed?  The psychopath, who out of necessity feels nothing for his prey, must be given a role in society.  They are the "natural" hunter-killers, the demolition experts, the forest-clearers, the executioners, the soldiers, etc.  We have seen this type of individual manifest usually as serial killers (Richard Kuklinsky, John Wayne Gacy) or as conquerors (Genghis Khan, Alexander the Great), which are feared and shunned but also secretly admired.  Some find their destructive outlet in combat sports, or in arenas, but most never do, so they hide in plain sight.  Others, like Christopher Columbus for example, himself being the quintessential psychopath, come to be regarded as heroes as time passes, although while they were alive they were veritable gods of war and terror.

There are also those who, in a misguided attempt to appear to be something other than what they are, find themselves in all walks of life and in various ill-fitting professions in order to appear to be like those around them.  This is the reason why when serial killers' crimes are eventually discovered, everyone is always so taken aback because the suspect "was the nicest guy ever" or "was really quiet and stayed to himself" and "I never would have thought they'd do that".  People generally never have any idea what's beneath the surface with so-called psychopaths, who go out of their way to appear "normal" as a necessary defense mechanism so that they can release their aggression unawares.


There are those who would read this post and recoil, saying "we cannot give a place to these sorts of destructive personalities because society itself would break down."  To those people I will make three counter-arguments:

a) Society is already broken dows, look around you.  The only place we see psychopaths currently represented is in the so-called "ruling classes" or in prisons and mental facilities.

b) Remember, this is a primal and necessary force of nature that we're speaking of.  It cannot be repressed.  We see the evidence of it's attempted repression in it's subsequent morphing into the systems and institutions within our society because it has no other outlet.  The collective unconscious has it's own shadow contents which are made evident in the psychopathic anti-human/anti-nature methodologies and technologies of most corporations.  We also see it manifesting in systems that are equally anti-human/anti-nature, such as the legal system.  We allow it to persist when we accept "I was just doing my job" as a valid excuse for the systematic destruction of people's lives and of the natural world.

c) These people are already out there, and there are new ones being born every day.   We just never had a "diagnosis" for them before.  It's always been like that, the psychopathic predator type has been out there from day one.  He is the brother who kills; the son who slays.  He makes a mockery of what you thought of him by what he does about it.  Randomly.  Compulsively.  Many of these sorts could be some common "smooth-talking playboy" types who just haven't actually done it yet - "American Psycho" anyone?  Maybe that's why that movie is so popular, it struck a nerve in society perhaps.  I thought it sucked when I first saw it, so I may need to watch it again to see what I must've missed.  Anyway.

In closing, the overall point of this post is to say that all operational modes of nature should be reflected within society with no judgment or preference for one over any other.  If a person is a healer, then let them heal.  If they are an inventor, then let them invent.  If they are a destroyer, let them destroy.  Society as a whole would benefit from this, and everyone would have a role.

Saturday, November 29, 2014

My "Tarot" Love Spell

Greetings, 

I'd like to post a spell that I cast over 4 years ago that resulted in my current relationship (which is still going strong I might add).  Sure, we've had our ups and downs and have even broken up once or twice due to disagreements, etc.  (can't really say I'm the easiest person to love).  But throughout all this time, we have each grown together and I know that we will be together for some time to come.  It all started with a love spell, which I'll share with you now.


I had been out of my previous relationship (a 2nd marriage) for over a year, and had finally gotten to the point where I felt comfortable moving on.  But I'd been out of the dating scene for a while and didn't want to end up in a bad situation, so I though I'd try a love spell to find a new girlfriend.

At the time, I was experimenting with using Tarot cards as magickal focusing aids, having read the book on the subject by Donald Tyson.  I knew that each Tarot card is simply a snapshot of various human psychological patterns, and that it is said that each of the 16 Myers-Briggs personality types can be mapped to one of the Court cards respectively.  What better tool for communicating with the universe exactly what one wants in a mate could there be, if true?

So, I sat down for about 20 minutes and listed all of the traits I'd want in my new companion, making sure that none of the negative traits which I'd found in my 2nd wife were on the list, but listing a few of her more endearing qualities.  Then I matched that list to the typical interpretations for each of the court cards, until I found the most likely card to represent my new companion's most dominant personality characteristics.  For our purposes, we'll say that the card I chose was the Queen of Cups.

Then I created a paper talisman in Microsoft Word which contained an image of the Queen of Cups card, along with other cards such as the 2 of Cups (or maybe it was the Lovers card, it's been a while can't remember which), and one other card in a triangular pattern, with my overall intention ("companion") written in Chaldean/Hebrew in the center of the triangle.  It resembled this diagram.



Tarot Talisman Diagram



I prayed to the Goddess over this talisman to consecrate it, telling Her exactly what I wanted in a mate, and asking Her to extend Her divine influence over the manifestation of my intention.  This was done on a Friday during the hour of Venus, during a waxing moon.  I believe I "fed" this talisman with lit candles every day for a week to make sure it had enough energy, and then I simply forgot about it, and began approaching women who I found interesting.

Sure enough, eventually I began to chat with my soon-to-be girlfriend who I met online, and we decided that we'd meet.  I met her out with her friends at a club, and we talked all night like we'd known each other for years.  We made plans to go out together, just the two of us, met up and had a great time (which lasted well into the night I might add).  The rest as they say is history.


After we decided that we'd date each other exclusively, I got curious and went back and checked to see exactly when I'd done my original spell and it turned out it was exactly 30 days from the date I'd cast the spell to the date when we went out on our first official date.  Add to that, once I'd compared my natal chart to hers, I found that we were remarkably compatible astrologically, with all relevant natal planet placements (moon, ascendant, Mars, Venus) between us being entirely compatible, if not of the same element.

She wasn't even freaked out when I finally "came out of the broom closet" with her and showed her my altar, etc.  She had been a Christian in her earlier life also, but had also fallen out with it and was looking for alternatives, but had no knowledge nor experience of magick.  We've since done many spells together, and although I wouldn't call her a witch per se, she definitely knows enough magick now to be fairly formidable if she really wanted to be.   She has also become very devoted to the Goddess, prays to her a lot, and even wears her pendant daily.

When I got onto the darker portions of my path, and began to establish relationships with the more infernal entities (especially those of the higher echelons), she got a bit concerned mainly because my personality changed somewhat, but she didn't say much until afterwards because she knew how important it was for me to do that.  Since I've "rebalanced" my lighter and darker natures, she's obviously become more comfortable, but I'm truly glad she mostly "gets it", at least enough not to interfere out of fear.  My inner work would be infinitely more difficult if I didn't have her to talk with, even though she doesn't always really "get" everything that I'm ranting about.

We almost never fight, are very compatible intellectually, and have many of the same goals or desires.  We can still talk on the phone for hours, even after just having been together for 3 whole days.  She also gets along with most of my family members, and both my mom and daughter just adore her.  I get along with her family very well also, and her dad and I have even worked on commercial projects together.  It has been this way from day one of our relationship, and she and I have both grown to rely on each other, and to trust each other explicitly. 


I consider this simple spell, done so long ago, as one of my greatest magickal successes and I am truly grateful to the Goddess for answering my request.  Hopefully, this post will inspire others to attempt the same type of spell for themselves if they are single and don't want to be, or if they'd want to try using the Tarot for other things than predicting the future.


Update 1/22/15 -  Interestingly, my girlfriend read this post and let me in on a few things that I didn't know.  One being the fact that on the exact weekend when I did this spell, she got into a huge unprovoked argument with a person whom she had only been seeing for a few weeks.  It occurred out of the blue and resulted in her looking online and joining a popular dating website - something she had never done before.  That website is where she and I met.  

It's always so fascinating to me how magick plays out in the material world.

Tuesday, November 25, 2014

The Fall of "A Living God"?


"When you set yourself up as a "Living God", prepare to be crucified for it."


As many know by now, the occult writer known as E.A. Koetting, purveyor of "Become A Living God" and related publications was arrested the other day during a traffic stop.  During this stop, various drugs and a gun were allegedly recovered by the officers on the scene, and the "Living God" himself was then taken into custody, along with a roommate.  He and the roommate reportedly have since posted bail and are awaiting the next steps in the legal process.

Since this occurred, many occultists on Facebook and elsewhere have offered their take on these events, some with barely restrained glee, and others with a more balanced approach to their commentary.  It seems obvious that many have been waiting for just this sort of thing to happen to Mr. Koetting.  This is to be expected, because Mr. Koetting's claims of supposedly near-godlike powers, disclosures of numerous "magickal homicides" "archangelic rapes" etc., along with his infomercial-styled marketing methods, seem to have made many people rather resentful of him.  Others feel that he has exposed formerly secret teachings to the "profane" in a grand scheme to get rich "at the expense of the gullible".  Again, tacky marketing methods aside, all of this was to be expected.  Proclaim yourself king of the hill, and then watch as the long line of those who want to knock you off of that hill forms.

It is a fact of life that you cannot become successful without making a few enemies along the way, some of whom will be unknown to you.  These people may not all be actively working against you, but they're not going to shed tears if a life-altering misfortune befalls you either.  Some will even kick you when you're down, making you wonder what you did to them personally to make them hate you so much.

Some of the online commentary I've read has included shock that Mr. Koetting has a day job (gasp!), and is said to be employed as a carpet cleaner in his mundane life.  Others had no idea (myself included) that "E. A. Koetting" is a pseudonym and not the author's real name.  Some have speculated that Koetting ran afoul of another magickal group with which he may have had some contention, and this situation resulted from their magickal attacks upon him.  I have no idea if that's what actually happened, although I'm sure it's possible.


It's no secret that I, and many others, have found a lot of value in Koetting's magickal methods.  I still think his "Book of Azazel" is an inspired work, along with a few of his other titles, most of which I've read, some more than once.  Specifically, his teachings on evocation radically altered my magickal practice and resulted in experiences for me that I would not have had otherwise.  The divination training course that he offered had a similar effect on my work, although not to as great a degree.  

For these reasons I have been very appreciative to him for his years of work and dedication to the arts magickal, just as I have been appreciative of other influences on what I do magickally, such as Jason "Inominandum" Miller, Donald Michael Kraig, Cat Yronwode, Aaron Leitch, Michael W. Ford, Lon Milo Duquette, Phil Hine, Peter Carroll, and countless others.  I have also found great value in the works of Aleister Crowley, who is another occultist who battled his own personal demons, albeit unsuccessfully.


The "personal demon" angle for this recent Koetting situation was the most impactful for me, and hit home the hardest.  Many of us have gone into extended and pitched warfare against our personal demons, myself included.  Mr. Koetting has himself said on numerous occasions that he suffered through a horrible upbringing as a child.  I can say the same (maybe I'll write about it one day), as can many others.  Unfortunately we can't pick our parents, and it is nearly a given that children who are severely emotionally damaged by their childhood experiences tend to become substance abusers as adults, depending upon the level of damage and types of abuses they suffered.

Am I implying that the drugs found in the car during this stop were likely Mr. Koetting's?  No.  But I'm also not saying they weren't, because I don't know one way or the other what belonged to whom, and neither does anyone else outside of him and his roommate.  The point I'm making is that many who have suffered emotionally during their early lives sometimes retain unresolved issues well into their adulthood.  I'm also saying "There, but for the grace of Goddess, go I."  

Unless you've lived a person's life, you have no real clue what struggles they're dealing with on an ongoing basis.  Some succeed at binding and/or reintegrating their personal demons, while others' demons have their hellish way with them until death.  Some stay clean and sober for years, while others relapse every other month.  That's life.


But to be fair, and before anyone accuses me of undue sympathy for Mr. Koetting, I should point out that I am against "compulsive" drug use of any kind, no matter the drug (pharmaceuticals included).  My personal stance also includes excessive and unrestrained alcohol consumption.  This stance has absolutely nothing to do with any moralizing or pontification, a la "Just Say No", but instead has everything to do with becoming fully sovereign over one's life, which by definition cannot include any addictions or compulsive drug use.  That is part of the main message found within the Luciferian philosophy as far as I've understood it.  And that evolution from rampant addiction to relative normalcy is usually a process, one which requires active effort and almost never happens overnight.

So does my herein publicly-declared stance mean that I always stick to "one or two drinks" as intended when I'm out with friends or with my girlfriend?  Nope.  But it does mean that I am consciously aware of that particular struggle, have set my own standard by which to live (whether I always fully meet it or not), and fully recognize and celebrate my progress in that area over the years.  

I am one of those who only 9 or 10 years ago would be inebriated 4 or 5 nights out of any random week, and basically took the other 2-3 nights off for recovery.  At one point I estimated that I spent about $1500 per month on alcohol and related activities - I truly wish I had access to that money now.  

But I am also one who nowadays probably only consumes alcohol 3-4 times per year, if that often, with intentions of eventually not consuming it at all.  How did my decrease in consumption happen?  Years of inner work.

I am one who used to get addicted to everything I ever tried, but am now one who has been nearly 8 years clean from any hard drugs or pills, after a couple of years of having a $500 per day habit (which I thought I could afford at the time because business was very good).  I attribute my cessation of the hard stuff 100% to my spiritual practices (regardless of the fact that I can't financially or otherwise afford to do it like that anymore) with most of my real inner progress being made while working with various so-called "infernal" entities (take THAT Christianity!).  

My mother, lifelong Pentecostal that she is, absolutely hates it when I tell her that Lucifer Himself is one of the main ones who helped me quit drinking so much and so often (Ave Lucifer!).  My conception of Lucifer has nothing to do with her Christianized concept, and instead shows Him to be representative of my higher self deified - an anthropomorphic personification of my highest ideals.  That doesn't fit her "narrative", so she has no idea how to deal with it since her Jesus couldn't do that for me (even after 15 years of being a Christian) and its always the fun part of me throwing that in her face.  I'm such an awesome son. 

Does any of that disclosure mean that I look down upon those who choose to partake in drugs or alcohol, however frequently or in whatever amounts?  Not even slightly.  In fact, I envy those who can stop precisely when they choose to (and not just because they've run out of money).  I envy those who grew up in good homes and have had no comparable damage done to their developing young psyches.  I envy those who haven't gone through what I've gone through in life due to consequences for substance abuses of one sort or another.  I also envy those who have always remained clean and sober throughout their entire lives.  That simply hasn't been my reality, but I'm working on it even though I still wouldn't say I've mastered it completely.  Not a justification, but if you'd lived my life or knew my background, you'd wonder how I've made it at all, let alone made it into my mid-40s. 

So I'm not trying to put myself on a pedestal by any means.  Far from it, because I know better than anyone that I still have a lot of inner work left to do; this is indeed a work in progress.  I'm probably still somewhat in danger of relapsing in one way or another if I get around the wrong people for long enough, even after all these years, which is why I don't deal with any of my former bar friends at all, not even returning their (gradually more infrequent) calls.  Eventually I'll be able to be around anyone anywhere no matter what they're into, but I'm still not absolutely certain that I'm there yet so I steer clear.  I'd much rather be friendless than to be a drunk or an addict if those are my options.  Being true to Luciferianism as I understand it is far more important to me than any of that, and I will not be a hypocrite about the fact that I am still at war with it, which is why I can openly discuss my struggles right along with my stance.  Frankly it also helps that I write under a pseudonym, just as Mr. Koetting does, but not as much as you might think.



I am also against riding around with illegal substances and illegal firearms in a car, albeit for different reasons.  Even if you do it frequently, and seem to get away with it, you only need to be caught once for it to go really badly.  Growing up back home as a young man, I've seen this happen over and over, where a routine traffic stop turns into a 3-to-5 year or longer prison sentence for some unlucky individual - it's almost a cliche to me.  

It's just really dumb to ride around like that, especially when you have a lot to lose if you're caught; sorry there's just no other way to put that.  And that isn't directed at Koetting specifically by any means (not that he'll read this), because how many athletes, entertainers, and others get caught doing the exact same thing the exact same way?  Believe it or not, police rely on traffic stops to make the vast majority of their drug and firearm arrests, so even if you're going to "ride dirty" on occasion at least be vigilant about it while in traffic.  Keep your car insured and legal to be on the road, abide the speed limit, come to a complete stop, etc.

(Again, I don't know the specifics of the case, or the backstory, so it could still turn out that Koetting was actually an innocent bystander in all this.  We'll see what he says happened when he addresses this situation himself.) 


As occultists, we have proven techniques and methods to discover and handle our demons more effectively than many other types of people.  It seems that the Hermetically-derived Western Tradition of magickal practice is well-constructed for just that, and that alone comprises a good portion of its appeal for me.  Many of my own emotional wounds have been healed as a result of meditation, along with long-overdue closure on painful and tragic childhood events for which I had no rationalizations prior to coming onto this path.


I'm really just saying that magick works if you work it, and not just for getting jobs and bedmates, although you still have to be vigilant and use common sense.  Sure, magick is great for manifesting jobs and bedmates, but it can do so much more than that if you direct it to.  It can help you make sense of yourself and your current and former relationships.  It can reveal things to you about yourself that you would never have otherwise discovered.  It can even transform you from being a drug-and-alcohol-addicted constantly angry black male statistic like I was, into a gradually more dignified and respectable person over time. 
 
In closing, the main takeaway from this situation for me was the primary importance of practitioners actually doing the inner work on ourselves so that these sorts of personal demons are better managed and can't easily create these types of unfortunate situations for us.  Crowley failed miserably at this, and perhaps Koetting has also, although each has demonstrated above-average magickal prowess and the ability to make obscure magickal concepts much easier to understand.  (Ok, I take that last part back, Crowley is still pretty obscure.)  This statement doesn't at all mean that I equate Koetting with Crowley because I can't make that equation; I am simply using Crowley's struggles as an example to make my point.

Koetting may also have failed so far at becoming a bonafide "Living God" as indicated by his recent woes, but this same tortured literary savant who can channel and develop a classic occult work like "The Book of Azazel" along with the Mastering Evocation/Divination/Soul Travel courses, can also bounce back from this, hopefully stronger and more focused than ever.   I hope he learns a lot from this experience, and grows from it, whether he escapes having to do time or not.  If indeed the drugs were his, then I hope he makes it a priority to do the necessary inner work to quell that proclivity and get a solid handle on it.  Maybe during the process he'll learn some Jedi mind tricks to use on the next cop.  One thing he'll learn for sure during this process, as I did, is that those who are still with you when things go badly, are more than likely those who were always with you.


I for one am looking forward to his next work, instead of his next headline.  Why?  Because "There, but for the grace of Goddess, go I."

Tuesday, November 4, 2014

The Myth of "Free Will"

Greetings,

Free will is one of those topics that touches all humans across the board, whether they are Pagan or of a religious bent.  There are many ideas regarding free will and its implications, all of which have a basis in religious texts, but none of which have a basis in fact or in social transactions.  I will explore this concept, the existence of which we all seem to take for granted as though it goes without saying that it exists, and should therefore be respected as an inviolable trait of humanity.  I believe it does not exist, and therefore cannot be respected, and I'll explain why during this post.

Most of the teachings regarding free will come from religious texts, such as the Qur'an and the Bible.  Free will is regarded as one of the main traits separating mankind from other species such as animals and even the angels.  It is postulated to have been engineered into man during his creation as a gift from God, and as a crown jewel which somehow exalts mankind even above the angels in the sight of God.  It is ostensibly the power to decide one's own course of action given a set of conditions and relative parameters, regardless and irrespective of any outside influences.

I suppose it's helpful to define our terms before we continue.   Free will is defined in the dictionary as "the power of acting without the constraint of necessity or fate; the ability to act at one's own discretion."  I'm struggling to see the difference between that idea of free will and  what those of the "animal kingdom" have.  It's the idea of self-determinism without outside influence that I have a problem with.

The main problem with the idea of free will becomes apparent when one asks the question "Free from what?", as if decisions and the corresponding behaviors which flow from them are never and should never be influenced in any way.  Only they are influenced, all the time and to varying degrees.  So precisely how "free" is free will?  Not very free at all, as we'll discover.



THE INFLUENCES UPON WILL - A SHORT LIST

There are many influences on our decision-making process, likely many more than we're aware of when making decisions, but these are just a few worth considering:

1. Biological Imperatives - Using Maslow's Hierarchy, we see that there are many physiological needs which must be addressed for an individual's life to persist, and are therefore outside the bounds of decision-making as to whether these things are to be pursued or not.  These needs are the acquisition of adequate food/water, clothing, shelter, sex, air, and even sleep.  The lack of any of these things is not conducive to life, and so the unconscious biological imperatives which drive their acquisition will inform and drive every higher impulse on both a subconscious and a conscious level.  In other words, one cannot decide not to eat or not to breathe ever again if one expects to live, and so these decisions are removed from the playing field since they cannot be controlled.  Further, any decisions stemming from these imperatives are inescapably outside of conscious control or will.

2. The Emotional Mind - Decisions are made in the emotional mind long before they are recognized as a conscious decision by the rational mind and acted upon.  The emotional mind itself is pre-conscious, and is almost entirely driven by hormones.  Therefore, hormones are largely the primary decision makers, and not the rational mind.  This does not mean that one cannot consciously decide not to follow a hormonal compulsion, but one cannot ignore them altogether for the most part.

3. Addictions - Addictions impair the emotional mind, and therefore the rational mind by extension.  When I mention addictions, I am including not only those proclivities for substances legal or illegal, but also emotional addictions such as power and the drive for domination, along with commonly unrecognized addictions such as television, video games, or even the seeking of approval.  Violent and aggressive compulsions can also indicate an addiction to adrenaline.  If someone is addicted to something, then their so-called "free will" has indeed been hijacked by that something.  Just ask any crack, meth, or heroin addict, or the person who has attempted to stop smoking dozens upon dozens of times.

4. Infections - There are parasites which can and do alter body chemistry in order to create compulsions for the consumption of substances, or other activities, which will create a favorable habitat for them to grow and reproduce.  Candida is one such fungal parasite.  One of the indicators of candida infestation within the body is the craving for refined sugar, regardless of the fact that refined sugar is toxic to the body.  We may call it "carbohydrate addiction", but it's usually just an infection, and candida is one of the most common of all infections, especially in our sugar-addicted world.  There are multitudes of these sorts of parasites, which include species of viruses and bacteria, any or all of which can and do hijack our decision making processes.



IMPULSES

As we can see, we are driven by impulses far more often and more effectively than we'd like to believe, and these impulses are themselves driven by factors that we are almost never entirely aware of.  So how is it that we believe ourselves to have free will, when in its operation our decision making processes are no different from those of "the animal kingdom", from which we prefer to divorce ourselves and arrogantly proclaim our superiority over?

The point is that impulses, not rational thought, drive decisions far more frequently than we'd like to believe, and far more often than so-called free will does.  Most importantly for the purposes of this post, the impulses of others are precisely what magick targets within them, regardless if you directed your spell directly at them or not.

For example, when the topic of love spells comes up in discussion, most practitioners believe that it is wrong to target a specific party with your spell as that will tamper with and influence their free will.  Instead we are supposed to do a non-specific spell and allow the universe to bring this desired person to us.  That is one of the most ridiculous things I've ever heard of.

If you do a blanket spell such that you draw compatible parties to yourself for purposes of dating, you will have little to no control over any traits or qualities within them that you do not desire, even if the spell works.  Let's say you do draw an astrologically-compatible partner to yourself with your magick, but then you discover (usually after you've fallen for them) that they have some long-standing mental illness, or anger or trust issues, or herpes, or perhaps they are from a cultural or racial group that is incompatible in some way to your life or family.  Maybe they're a raging alcoholic.  Your magick may have worked, but you've still failed to get what you truly want.

Unless you specify every single thing that you want in a person, and are willing to wait until a person fitting those specific parameters becomes single and enters your sphere of influence (which could take a long while), you're still getting the luck of the draw.  And for what?  Because you didn't target the one you actually wanted because you were afraid it would affect their free will somehow?  Tell me exactly what doesn't affect their will, especially when armed with the knowledge found in the preceding section.  Tell me exactly why we are held to a higher standard than the rest of the entire natural world, of which we are a part?

If you target a specific person with your love spell and are successful, and then find out later that you aren't compatible with them, at least you aren't left with feeling as though the universe made a mistake, or that somehow you should have phrased your intention differently.  Trust me, I've been there.



MAGICK INFLUENCES FREE WILL - SO WHAT ELSE IS NEW?

Everything conscious acts upon everything else in order to either expand it's sphere of activity and to live as abundantly as it intends.  The roots of all plants impose upon and invade the soil to displace it, regardless of whichever organisms live and find their homes within it.  Cats will interrupt your sleep when they are hungry, no matter how early it is in the morning or how late you went to bed the night before.  Dogs will interrupt your favorite television program when they have to go outside and relieve themselves.  Small children could care less about whatever it is that you're doing when they have a boo-boo, or perhaps a crayon drawing which they've decided requires your immediate attention.

Men routinely impose their will upon other men (and women), as that is a general and even expected trait of alpha masculinity.  Women do the same thing to men and even other women using their own powers of femininity and emotional coercion.  Magick is simply a non-physical form of influence and coercion, and is logically no different from any of the above examples.



POWER AND POSITION TRUMP SO-CALLED "FREE WILL", AND ALWAYS HAVE

The overall point is that power and position can and will trump anyone's decision-making process or free will, either intentionally or not.  It happens all day, everyday, and in every conceivable way.  Therefore I contend that although the idea of having free will may sound good, it doesn't really stand up to scrutiny as to whether it actually exists the way we think it does, so it shouldn't even be considered at all.

If an organism living in your gut unbeknownst to you decides that it wants you to eat salty foods, then you will feed it salty foods because it is in a position to demand those foods and has the chemically-directed power to make you comply.  If the government decides that it wants 20% of your income, then it will get 20% of your income, because it has the position and military power to force your compliance.  If your wife decides that she is withholding sexual intercourse for some perceived wrong on your part, then you simply ain't getting any from her, because she has the position and sexual power to block your late-night advances.

It is no different with magick, nor should it be.  It's the way nature itself has been designed by our creator, and we as practitioners of magick (black, gray, or white) simply operate within nature's law, especially those of us who are attempting to accomplish the work of self-deification, also known as The Great Work.


Those with the position and power to make a thing occur at their whim have every right to do so until they are effectively resisted.  And those who demonstrate having a weak will, or who are unaware of your intentions and/or workings upon them, should not be respected at all with regard to whatever behaviors or resources you can magickally or mundanely elicit from them, whether they've decided that they want to do what you want them to or not.

If they can resist your magickal influences, or mundane coercions, that's great for them.  If not, then too bad, and life goes on as it should.


"There is no law beyond do what thou wilt."

Sunday, September 14, 2014

The "Wealth Area Network": My Adventures with Orobas (Part 2 of 2)

Greetings,

To continue the post I began a few days ago about Orobas, I'd like to show you some of the work we've done together.


THE JUPITERIAN WEALTH BOX

In my last post, I spoke about a Jupiterian Wealth Box that I constructed last year and which has worked wonders for me since it has been  empowered by Orobas' presence within it.  The box, as meticulously designed, is intended to concentrate the beneficial energies of Jupiter into a practitioner's sphere.



The front of the box is designed as a square divided into 4 quadrants.  In the upper left quadrant we see in gold flake the Norse rune Fehu, which symbolizes movable wealth.  In the upper right quadrant we see the planetary symbol for Jupiter, the planet of wealth.  In the lower right quadrant we see the planetary seal of Jupiter, and in the lower left we see the magic square for Jupiter, with a sigil in the approximate shape of Kaph.  The numbers touched by the sigil, which add to 28, correspond to the numeric value of the Hebrew word "כח " ("Koach") corresponding to "wealth, riches, ability, and power" by the use of Gematria.

The color painted on the box is a very specific shade of bluish purple, which corresponds closely to the Golden Dawn color for both Venus in Briah, and also the queen scale color for Tiphareth.  Jupiterian planetary magick typically uses this color as well, as it is sort of a "royal" blue.  So I felt that this particular shade would be perfect, since it in one way or another corresponds to 3 energies each of which are known to attract money.

The inside of the box has even more symbolism, and draws upon all 4 elemental worlds.  It contains a number of magickal items along with the empowered seal of Orobas engraved upon a silver disk, which itself was engraved and consecrated along with the box itself while Jupiter was exalted in Cancer.  I will not publish publicly the entire contents of the inside of the box, but suffice it to say that every single detail has been well thought out in order to bring about a manifestation of money. 

The very first time I used the Wealth Box, it generated about $4000 from simply placing a check into it for a far lower amount that I'd received from a customer.  I've been using it ever since in different ways, most of which are documented in part one of this post.  The Wealth box is truly one of a kind, and of all of the magickal items which I've designed and built, it is one of my favorite pieces.  It even has it's own altar in my temple.


JOIN THE "WEALTH AREA NETWORK"

Recently, it occurred to me that if there were more of these boxes out there which were being fed regularly, the cumulative effect would be more wealth for everyone who had one in their home or place of business.  Thus, I have a proposal to make.  I am intending to duplicate the success of this box by creating the world's first and only (to my knowledge) magickal Wealth Area Network.  To do this, I want to build identical (to mine) Jupiterian Wealth Boxes for 11 other people, which will make a total of 12 of these boxes in existence.

The people involved must agree to be a part of this working for the long haul, meaning at least two years but preferably longer.  Your involvement would consist of at least 1 monthly offering to Orobas, on the first Thursday following the new moon.  That's it.  You would get a reminder via email from a Google Calendar widget that I would set up for the group.  If you want to share a story about how your fortunes changed once this box came into your hands, you can do so but you're by no means obligated to share.  The consistency of the monthly offerings is the important thing, although I would like to share a story or two from time to time on this blog.

I would really like to be involved with those who are looking to gain serious wealth, and who also have a means of doing it.  Working at a job does not normally get you the type of wealth I'm talking about, because ordinarily you cannot have a cap on your income such as a set wage and expect to become wealthy (unless you have another stream of passive income or similar).  Again, I've been working with this box for over a year, and it has never failed to produce results.  I want to see what it'll do for other people, and in what other applications it can be used, and then share some of that on this blog.

Strict privacy and anonymity is promised and assured.  No one will ever know anything about the 11 participants in this long-term working, not even the other participants.  I will not share your information with anyone at all. 


The requirements are simple:

1. Send me an email with your name (or your magickal name if you'd like to remain anonymous) disclosed, and let me know a little bit about yourself and your magickal background, along with the address where you would want your box shipped.

2. Once I receive your email, I will let Orobas pick (via divination) who will be a part of this experiment.  Since he will be the one fed by your monthly offerings, he must be comfortable in your home, and you must be comfortable with him constantly being a part of your life, although he is widely known to be of a good-nature.  This is ultimately his project, so he's the one who will choose the participants. 

3. Commit in writing (to Orobas, in a agreement) to making synchronized monthly offerings with the rest of the group, during any hour of Jupiter on the first Thursday following the new moon every month.

4. Once you receive your box, make the required offering every month along with the rest of the group.  If you choose to make more frequent offerings, that's fine.  But only one per month is required.


If you will do these things, then I will do the following:

1. Construct your Wealth Box identically to mine, which includes performing the same rites and rituals that I used when mine was created.  In order to address the subject of my admittedly opportune astrological timing when the construction of my box occurred, I will take some of the same materials out of my box and place them into yours.  This will invoke the magickal laws of similarity and contagion, and cause your box to work exactly as mine does, just as if it had been made at the same time when I made mine.

2. Engrave and consecrate a silver disk using the seal of Orobas, exactly like mine.  I will then bind his presence to this disk and place it into the box.  Then I will consecrate the box and the disk together, and ship them to you.

3. I will ask for a donation of $220 to cover the cost of the materials and the amount of time involved in it's creation, before building your box and shipping it to you.  I am not trying to make money on this box; I intend to make money by being bombarded along with you by the massive wealth current that we will collectively invoke into our homes and businesses every month, so that's why the requested donation amount is so low.  If I were to sell this box outright, it would be worth many times more than what I'm asking for as a donation.  Especially as a limited edition of only 12 ever to be made and empowered in this manner.  I will send a PayPal invoice for this amount to your email address, so no financial information will be disclosed to me personally.

4. Send a monthly email reminder via Google Calendar to your email address.



That concludes this post.  If you have any questions about this project, feel free to leave your question in the comments section or just send me an email and I'll answer it promptly.



EDIT (10/12/2014): The two-part post for Orobas which I wrote began as a series of knocks upon my wall while I was in my bedroom, which I discovered to be Orobas getting my attention as he sometimes does.  I was then summoned into my temple and communed with him to see what he wanted, at which time he expressed some displeasure at the fact that I had been working with him for a year and had never written on my blog about him once, whereas I had written quite a bit about my exploits with other demons.  I promised to make amends for that with a two-part blog post, at which time he mentioned that if I did that, he would put an end to all of my current financial issues.  The pact was then struck.

I then wrote the first of my two-part post for Orobas, as an offering of sorts, detailing our exploits and relationship.  Soon after writing the first installment, I experienced a marked increase in business and grossed a healthy 5-figure sum over about a month's time, which completely resolved my lingering financial issues and then some.  Because my monthly obligations are kept low, the proceeds from this month-long increase in business could potentially carry me financially until early next Spring.  This all came about from keeping the business cards of the two main decision makers at my largest commercial client in my Jupiterian Wealth Box with the intention of influencing these two to send me work.

Orobas is indeed true to his word, and for that I am grateful.  Hail Orobas!

Wednesday, August 27, 2014

The First Enoch and the Origins of Enochian Magick

Greetings,

Continuing the research that I've been doing on Enochian Magick and how it originally began, I ran across an interesting passage in the Book of Genesis which sheds some doubt upon who the supposed father of Enochian Magick actually was, instead of who we THINK it was. 


First, let's look at a scripture found in Genesis 4:17 (KJV):

"And Cain knew his wife; and she conceived, and bare Enoch: and he builded a city, and called the name of the city, after the name of his son, Enoch."

Second, let's look at another scripture found in Genesis 5:18 (KJV):

"And Jared lived an hundred sixty and two years, and he begat Enoch:"


So basically, we have not one but TWO Enochs listed in the Bible, one who is the son of Cain (Qayin), and the second who is the son of Jared, and who is the seventh generation from Adam in the lineage of Adam's son Seth.  This second Enoch, the more famous one, is the same one who was said to have been translated because he pleased God, and so he never actually died according to the scriptures.

In occult teachings, this second Enoch is also said to have been transformed into the angel Metatron.  He is ostensibly the one thought of when the term Enochian Magick is mentioned, but that identification may actually be in error, or at least not fully attributable to him.  This post will explore that possibility.


THE ACTUAL FALL OF MAN REVISITED

One of the things which is glossed over (a politically correct term for "hidden") in the Genesis scriptures is the allegorical nature of the fall of man, ie Original Sin.  We have been taught that Eve, due to the serpent's beguiling, ate from the tree of the knowledge of good and evil and convinced Adam to do the same.  Then they were tossed out of the Garden of Eden, and now everyone supposedly needs a savior (Christianity in a nutshell).

But, in occult circles, it is known that the interaction between Eve and the serpent (Samael) was actually of a sexual nature, and resulted in the birth of Qayin, who was NOT the son of Adam as the scripture said.  Abel was the first son of Adam with Eve, but Qayin was the son of Samael and Eve.

So the sin was not simply "eating" from the tree, but was rather the mixing of divine (angelic) genetics with human genetics through a forbidden sexual act.  When Adam "knew" Eve (allegorically written as him partaking of the same fruit from the tree) she basically showed him the same sexual acts which Samael had shown her.  This is what got God so upset, and ultimately got the first family kicked out of the Garden of Eden.

Anyway Qayin, after his exile and travel into Nod, went on to build many cities (more than likely in the continent of what we now know as Africa), and so did his lineage, including Nimrod.  He went out from the "presence of the Lord" so it's very likely that he embraced the presence of his father Samael.  Qayin's firstborn son Enoch had the privilege of having Qayin's first city named after him.  But after that we hear no more about this first Enoch, other than he died.

The second Enoch, as the scriptures say, walked with God and pleased him so much that he was translated so that he would not see death, and basically became Metatron.


HERE'S THE ISSUE I HAVE WITH THE WHOLE STORY

Since it's been established that the second Enoch was so righteous, and pleased God so much to the point where he was spared the sting of death, how is it possible that the magick we now know as Enochian came from him, or should be attributed to him?  Even if God taught it to him as the myths allude, he probably forbade him from teaching it to anyone else.  This reluctance to share knowledge is partially what got everyone else killed who didn't know this type of magick, as I'll get into in a moment.

If Shemiyaza and Azazel, among the other fallen angels, were the ones who taught men magick and all the building blocks of civilization, and were subsequently punished for it, then it stands to reason that the magick the angels taught COULD NOT have come from, and really had almost nothing to do with the second Enoch.  (Even Dr. John Dee never called his revealed style of magick "Enochian" - that label came later.  Dr. Dee called it Angelic Magick.  As a matter of fact, Dr. Dee never even used this style of magick from what records we have, although I do have my suspicions about the whole Spanish Armada incident.  But basically all he did was reconstruct it with the help of Kelley and the angels.)

Logically, it makes more sense that this form of original magick would have been taught to, and stemmed from, the line of Qayin and his son, the first Enoch, and would probably have been taught to them by Samael since they were his descendants.  Some have called Qayin the Witchfather, so it's likely that he taught this form of magick to his descendants, and so it was passed down. 

(As a side note, there are some speculations that Qayin and Azazel are one and the same, which would make Azazel the son of Samael.  There are also speculations that Azazel is the firstborn of Lilith and Samael.  So if we judge by both accounts, it's probable that Azazel is the son of Samael, but it's not clear whether he is actually Qayin, or simply Qayin's more-powerful brother.)

Enochian Magick must therefore originally have been the Magick of the Nephilim, or better yet, the Original Magick, which was probably known by both Enochs.


Let's look at the Book of Enoch for further clues.  Here's Enoch 8:1-4:

"And Azazel taught men to make swords, and knives, and shields, and breastplates, and made known to them the metals of the earth and the art of working them, and bracelets, and ornaments, and the use of antimony, and the beautifying of the eyelids, and all kinds of costly stones, and all colouring tinctures.

And there arose much godlessness, and they committed fornication, and they were led astray, and became corrupt in all their ways.
 

Semjaza taught enchantments, and root-cuttings, Armaros the resolving of enchantments, Baraqijal taught astrology, Kokabel the constellations, ezeqeel the knowledge of the clouds, Araqiel the signs of the earth, Shamsiel the signs of the sun, and Sariel the course of the moon.
 

And as men perished, they cried, and their cry went up to heaven…  "


So now by this scripture we've established that not only were men taught magick, astrology, constellations, and the watching of planetary bodies, etc., all of which are portions of Enochian and other later forms of magick, we can also see that not all men benefited from this knowledge.  It's not a stretch to believe that if "men perished", then these victims were probably from the lineage of Seth and not Qayin.  The lineage of Seth (typical humans) likely had no answer for the advanced knowledge, weaponry, and genetically-derived magickal powers of the line of Qayin, and so they were slaughtered (and eaten as described in Enoch Chapter 7). 

Since Qayin and his offspring were out building cities and such, they probably warred against the sons of men for necessary lands and resources in order to set up those cities.  It eventually got so bad on the earth, as those from the line of Qayin were wiping out those from the line of Seth, that God decided to flood the earth to kill off these extremely powerful Nephilim, and that's how the flood happened.  It was a genetic war of demi-gods (Samael's lineage) and humans (Adam's lineage), and the humans were losing badly because they weren't taught the same things.  They were "destroyed for the lack of knowledge" as it were.


Our further clue is found back in Genesis, where God pronounced judgement upon Adam and Eve for sinning.  He said to the Serpent (Samael) "I will put enmity between thee and the woman, and between thy seed and her seed." (Genesis 3:15 KJV)

So we can see the beginnings of the genetic or racial warfare between the race of demigods (Nephilim) and the race of humans (seed of Adam and Seth) in its inception from this scripture, and it all started because of God's curse and because of Enoch's reluctance to share his knowledge.

This is possibly why people (humans) fear those who practice magick so much; it's a primal fear and they just can't help it.  I believe there's probably a genetic memory of the slaughter of humans (or "muggles" if I were to use the term from the Harry Potter books) by those who are of a higher and different seed stock or lineage (witches, sorcerers, and the like), and who possessed more knowledge than they did.

There's more I could add to this, including the Sumerians' take on this same story, but I won't for the sake of brevity.

The Gifts of The Fallen

Greetings,

I've been contemplating and researching a lot of information regarding the fallen angels, and what they actually bequeathed unto humankind.  There isn't really a lot of information regarding what occurred in those early pre-flood days other than what's found in texts like the Book of Enoch, Genesis from the Bible, and if you can make sense of it enough to tie it in with all the different names of the same key players, some of Zechariah Sitchin's work.

For this post however, I'm going to stick to the Book of Enoch's rendition of events.  In that rendition it says the following:

"And Azazel taught men to make swords, and knives, and shields, and breastplates, and made known to them the metals of the earth and the art of working them, and bracelets, and ornaments, and the use of antimony, and the beautifying of the eyelids, and all kinds of costly stones, and all colouring tinctures....Semjaza taught enchantments, and root-cuttings, 'Armaros the resolving of enchantments, Baraqijal (taught) astrology, Kokabel the constellations, Ezeqeel the knowledge of the clouds, Araqiel the signs of the earth, Shamsiel the signs of the sun, and Sariel the course of the moon.

By this passage it is generally understood that the 3 primary things that humans were taught were the working of metalwork/warfare/construction, magick and the knowledge of the natural world (which would also have included agriculture and medicine), and the arts of self-beautification and self-fulfillment.  As we can see from this passage, there were many more than these primary 3 things taught to mankind.  And I'm sure there were probably other things taught to us which didn't make it onto Enoch's list.

These three main branches of knowledge, along with the rest of what was taught to us, were the basis of early civilizations, and yet serve as the building blocks of civilization to this day. 

Thus it follows that the fallen angels are the original authors of civilization as we know it.